Hide

Tears are words the mouth can't say nor can the heart bare.

Guess my eyes are not the first to cry...
but now there's nowere to hide
Help me make it through the night...

I wish I'd tell you how I really feel
but tomorrow it will be much better
I will be even better...




 

Back at one...

1, 2, 3... and back at one...

When the world says, 'Give up',
Hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.'

Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.
Robert Frost
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Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.
Robert Frost
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Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.
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Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.
Robert Frost
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Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.
Robert Frost
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I am too damn scared to try...

It's all the dreams that never came true cause I am too damn scared to try...

Hit the lights
Let the music move you
Lose yourself tonight
Come alive
Let the moment take you
Lose control tonight

Zumba... dancing, losing control, feeling free, hapiness.

Try hard...

I try hard to fight my feelings. There's a lie I am keeping telling myself but deep inside, I know...  I know a simple glance turns into a stare, but I pretend that I don't care. 

Music...

Music always helps, no matter what you are going through. So, if you just miss someone so bad, it hurts, then listen to music...

and dance...

ZUMBA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpQFFLBMEPI 

Two lost souls in the shadow...

Two lost souls in the shadow.... but I do believe we can learn to love again!

"Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about."

One wish...

Cold eyes....
There is only one wish on my mind...
Unfortunately NEVER...
Though I need to be hugged more than ever!

I'm a dreamer...

But dreams can be very dangerous... why?

"This is why dreams can be such dangerous things: they smolder on like a fire does, and sometimes they consume us completely." 

 Sooo true...

I hate you...

Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say
Sometimes I wanna slap you in your whole face
...
At the same time, I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck
...
But I hate you, I really hate you,
So much...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6vsHF3E9NU

Get over it...

Loving someone is not in your control, it is just a feeling and tough to get over it.

Just keep your mind in a positive attitude

 

You have some problems,
You need God to solve them.
You get down on your knees and pray.
When is He coming through?
When will He answer you.
Well it may not be right away.
But in the mean time,
Just keep your mind,
In a positive attitude.
And while you waiting,
Start praising,
He is gonna see you through,
Here is what you got to do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvZh6R2md1c

 

I have a reason...

Zumba always helps to relax, to forget, to make me feel better...

Though I have a reason to let you cry...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3P06kyFpIQU

Moving on doesn't take a day...

Take all the time you need to heal emotionally. Moving on doesn't take a day. It takes a lot of little steps to be able to break free of your broken self...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDI90J2lMVA

Dear Tummy, sorry for all the butterflies. 
Dear Heart, sorry for the damage. 
Dear Brain, you were right.

Egy hét történései...

Hétfőn izgultam a konferencia miatt, kedden idegeskedtem egy számomra fontos dolog miatt, szerdán fogászat, csütörtökön továbbképzés, pénteken farsang a suliban... és szombaton kiáztatom magam Siófokon!!!

BLUE

BLUE....

I feel blue because I am...

disappointed...
heartbroken...
frustrated...
confused...
hopeless...
puzzled...
angry...
sad...

They do not understand the essential meaning of my message...
I do not know what they think...
But there is no problem at all....
OK, I can accept it!

Go ahead and just work! No matter how it hurts!!!! BUT it hurts too much!!!

Another sleepless night...

NEM TUDOK ALUDNI!!!

Singing...

I’m singing to keep from feelin’ blue...

Forget...

I have to work a lot and I can forget.... Today I did. I spent 12 hours with work and I didn't have any minutes to think... but it is soooo hard to behave like normal.... it is really hard!!! Now I am listening to music... my favorites... When I am feeling blue the Sun isn't shining, the weather is dull and everything is grey. Then I listen to music and I can see the Sun and all the colors again. I'm very emotional...

Veszedelmes, intő fájdalom...

Eljön az idő, amikor minden kijárat lezárul, mintha viasszal tapasztanák be. Ülsz a szobádban, a testedben érzed a szúró fájdalmat, ami összeszorítja a torkodat és veszélyes kis könnyzacskókká préselődik a szemed mögött. Egy szó, egyetlen mozdulat és mindaz, ami felgyülemlett benned - elmérgesedett harag, teljesíthetetlen vágyak - kirobban belőled dühös, tehetetlen könnyekben, zavart zokogásban és hüppögésben, és mindez nem is szól senkinek. Nincs kar, hogy átöleljen, nincs hang, hogy azt mondja: jó, jó. Aludj és felejtsd el. - Nem, nem. Veszedelmes, intő fájdalmat érzel. A kevés alvás és a túlfeszített idegek játékát is érzed és azt a sejtést, hogy ezúttal a kártyákat ellened rakták, és a halom egyre nő. Kijárat kell és mindet plomba zárja.

Broken

I am broken and blue.

It sucks...

It sucks when you're being ignored by the only person you want attention from. It hurts when you get no conversation from the only one you want to talk to.... Feelings are things that we have no control over... total happiness, sadness, excitement, disappointment, love, hate, heartbreak and so much more. Though there is one question: is it worth?